To someone who has imprinting on me but whom is not meant for me

Hmmm.....

I am sorry. I love you dearly, but it is mainly memories and friendship sort of love, but I am not going back there.

Although I have forgiven both your and my sins towards each other, but I would not forget how you have thrown me aside and it was God (mainly God), and my family and a few loyal best friends, who had to pick the leftover pieces of me up and carefully stick me together again.

Plus, love must be based on truth. We are fond of each other, but, if we really want to be honest about it, you do not know me, and I also do not know you, we only know each other up to a certain point and that was up until 3, 4 years ago. That's it. We are friends, although undeniably you can easily stir a certain aching of the heart because you were after all my first love, but NOW, you re  friend to me, just like any other friend.

Most importantly, you don't just dump me aside for a whole 4 years just because I am far and because you cannot 'feel' me near, but now that I am going back very very soon, you want to 'reconnect' again. Yes, we can reconnect, but only as friends.

If I were me back then, I would gladly jump right back into the blind 'love' of you. But as I am now, who is more in love with and even more indebted to God, I'd rather live a single life for the rest of my life, than to be with someone that God has not set for me, not especially someone who would make me fall out of God's grace and light.

If only you see the real meaning of love as how God sets it, as how I see and feel it now...