Monday, 7 March 2011

Love yourself

I know the title sounds so cliche, for years I've been listening to it, but now only I truly understand it with my heart, and live it.

However...

It's kind of painful to see someone that you used to love, does not love himself, and does not move forward, especially when you still care for him.

You used to be so close to him, and shared your life with him, moved forward together.

Then you break up with him, as traumatizing as it was, after some time, you just wished each other the best, as friends. You learn from the break up, you learn from other painful experiences, what love really means, what love really demands, and eventually you understand what true happiness and joy is. To me, all these are possible, only by the intervention of God in my life, I can feel the fruit of being obedient to Him, and can see the blessings that start to pour in abundantly into my life, however subtle and not obvious the blessings sometimes seem.

He who have always depended on the world and its people for his own worth, his own values, would have difficulties to see what I see, and thus, what I am scared of is that, from this sunny spot of freedom of life that I'm in at the moment, I fear of looking back over my shoulders, just to be feel saddened to see him still very much entrapped in the darkness of worldly mind-trap. But I really don't know what I can do. I can only try my best to offer advice to a certain limit, but I can see a huge thick wall stands between our minds. From my side, I wouldn't able to break through it. HE has to be the one to knock the wall down. And to be very crude, he is, very very very stupidly stubborn.

I can only pray hard to the Lord, and to mother Mary, that his heart will be softened one day, be wise, and that he can break free from the chains he put on himself.

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